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So still here in North Carolina things are going really good here getting to be pretty popular but hey when you are the only goth/horror punk kid in the state that happens. Me and Ashley are doing GREAT we have been together for six months now on the seventh of this month, which is totally fucking awesome because she means the world to me and i never though a whore like me could be wit ha girl that long. I should be out in AZ sometime soon though which is awesome because i miss the hell out of you little bastards back home. Got like 2 people here that i actually consider friends other than that no one else in this ENTIRE state even comes close to you crazy asses back in the desert. So Look for me in July you will know i am there..... trust me you will just know it. it will be like when jesus came back from the whole resurrection thing you will all just know. wow i think i just compared myself to jesus that can't be good at all; i think i should repent or whatever. but, then again it was you losers back in az that started calling me god wasn't it ! crazy bastards look what you have done to me ! oh and for mr. scotty out there aka stiffy YOU HATE DIMEBAG NOT ME YOU SKINNY BASTARD!
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| Time: | 6:10 pm. |
| Mood: |  insane. | | Music: | Alien Ant Farm. |
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so i was looking at my journal and realized that i haven't added a new entry in forever so yah whatever. ummm things in nc blow pretty hard the only thing i really give a fuck about here is my gf. she is honestly the greatest thing that has ever happened to me in my life. she is probably the best friend i have ever had and i care about her more than i ever thought i could another person. the homelife here blows though my mom is trippin the fuck out on me all the time and i want to constantly do things that can be thought of as "self mutilation". i don't want to cut or anything i just want to be violent and i don't know why but i hate violence and committing an act of violence on another human being. so the only thing i see fit is to be violent to myself. does this sound weird? does anyone get what i am trying to say? i am not saying that i want to like kill myself or anything. i just feel like releasing all this built up emotion mostly rage on myself so i can be ok again. it's weird though even though i feel like this everytime i am around ash i am totally at peace she makes me feel like no one else has ever been able to. every second i am around her i am completely happy it's weird because no one else has ever been able to make me feel this way. kinda scary i guess but i love every second of it just like i do her. well that is enough of this sappy bullshit.
Love
Graves x13x
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Tuesday, March 15th, 2005
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So i was walkin down the street to my grandmothers house when the biggest peice of shit truck drives by me. Sticking his head out of the window a see a huge dumb ass redneck with no more than 5 teeth, and his equally dumb counterpart sitting in the passenger seat, yelling at me "grow up and get a life you little freak!" This was by far the highlight of my day. I turned around flipped the dumb ass off and kept on walkin with a huge smile on my face just as Davey Havok would have done. Now you might be wondering didn't this piss you off Graves? Lol no that dumbass probably dropped out of high school he drives a truck that literaly puts down the road and he is missing almost all of his teeth. When here i am a very sexy goth boy ,if i do say so myself, with a hot ass gf instead of a redneck friend that allways rides in my truck. I have a nice ass brand new 2004 Ford Focus and a 2001 Pontiac Grand-Am gt. now lets see who here has the better life the redneck that probably dropped out of high school and will soon be missing all of his teeth or the sexy goth boy?
Graves x13x
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so just thought i would tell everyone that i am still alive here in HICKSVILLE USA! Things are going really good here i have found a gf that means the absolute world to me never in my life have i cared so much about someone not even family members. I have been going out with ashley for 2 months now and it seems like things have been going so fast yet so long at the same time. This girl means the world to me i wish that all of you that live in az could meet her because i know ,unlike the others, you will adore this girl just because of how happy she makes me. but yah enough about my love life. i miss you all very much and wish i could see you all just for a day would be enough so that i could tell you all how much you really do mean to me. i mean i don't want to sound gay or anything but you guys my friends don't really know how happy you make me. you are my friends and at the same time my family your like my brothers and sisters that keep me going. but anyway enough of that sappy stuff just wanted to let you all know that i really truly do deeply care about all of you and hope to see you all very soon.
Love
Graves x13x
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lol i love that icon.
amused.
loved/loving/ little gay lol.